Saturday, September 10, 2011

time goes by too fast

Not sure the last time i wrote, i think it was the end of July.... and here we are in September... Holy Cow!!! Anderson is 2 months old, today he got his 2 month shots.. weighing in at 12.3lbs and 22.7 inches. he is GROWING!!!!!!!!! 
life is life, and its busy!!! i started school at the end of august and then my internship. so class is 2 to 3 nights a week and then the internship is 16hrs a week, plus homework, house stuff and Anderson!!eeek! thank goodness wilson is around and can help,. that too has been an adjustment, he went from having lots and lots of free time for himself (since i wasnt in school yet) to me really, really needing his help!! sometimes i think about leaving school, but thats not realistic. our housing is linked through the school and so if im not in school then we lose the house, which would not be cool, and i really think that this is the last of my schooling, a masters is enough for me.. i may look into another certification, to work in public schools, but i just dunno! so yeah, Anderson will be just under 2 when im done and thats ok.. then  will have lots and lots of time with him...
i have to admit that our relationship is way different now, and wilson was much different when i was pregnant and when i asked him about it, he said that "pregnancy is a vert delicate thing and i was fragile" well, what about now?!... so yeah, we have changed.. im in bed around 1030/11 most nights and thats around the time that he is coming home from work.. and then in the AM i wake up around 830 with the baby and he sleeps in, and so we're kinda on opposite schedules... and its been hard for us... 
my mom left in early august and so its really been on us to care for Anderson and really without help, yes we have great friends and support but we cant just call on them all the time for help.. 
my aunt & unlce came last saturday thru wednesday night and it was so great to see them, and they both have lost alotta weight and it was a really great incentive for me, i need to lose weight and be healthier in so many ways. wilson and i are trying to come up w/ a schedule so that i can hit the gym once in a while.. if i could go 3 days a week id be happy.. happy that im going  & happy with myself.. but sometimes im soo tired i just wanna be home, on the couch, taking it easy... 
ive been doing the math, if i try to get pregnant again in february, i will have baby #2 in late november, which would allow me to have some time off for winter break w/ the baby and to recover.. otherwise, ill wait till fall time of next year to try and then have the baby soon after i graduate in summer of 2013.. insane i know to think about having baby #2,but since the pregnancy is so long, ya gotta think of it... i mention it to wilson, but he doesnt say much.. i guess we have a lil time before we really talk about it and i need to see how things go here with us and anderson... i just know that i am 30.. and i would like to have 2 babies before im heading back into the work place after im done with school..... i gots some thinking to do!!! ok, well its waaay past my bed time.. and im going to work tomorrow.. first day back with my family (im a nanny)....its only 6 hrs and i get to take anderson with me.. so itll be an experience!!! im hoping to keep up with my blogging, so that i have an outlet.... 

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