sensitive and unsure.

im going to blame everything on hormones, cause i dont know what else to blame things on... i just feel kind of insecure... unattractive, unwanted and just sad... 
we have company right now, a friend from vegas with her 2 pups... we dont mind her company, just cause shes so laid back and is really here just to take the dogs to the beach, relax and get away... but at the same time- whenever we have company, or for the most part- wilson gets kinda cranky, and it just makes things weird, he can be hard to please and likes things the way they are without company... i know and see where hes coming from, that yes, company can be a hassle and you have to be somewhat accommodating but at the same time- give me a break. and how is he gonna be when the baby is here?.. the baby will be another person in our home and for a long time!! and will that somehow adjust our relationship? will he see the baby as a hassle?.. i usually feel like hes very excited and happy about the baby, and maybe its just me... 
the end of the semester is RIGHT around the corner, and i think thats part of my anxiety, i have lots to do, and feel unmotivated, i have a professor who is being mean to me about missing a class when i was sick and the dr. told me that i couldnt go to class, its like great- the never ending battle with him doesnt seem to be coming to an end soon. im really looking forward to school ending, itll be a nice break time and hopefully ill have motivation to do things and prepare for Bubble.. our plan is to start working on the switch of rooms when our friend leaves... 
OMG, peeing, is out of control!!!... insane, i really feel like i cant stop peeing, once i sit down i realize i gotta go again and its driving me nuts!! awesome!.. 
saw the dr. for our check up the other day, alls on track!.. and doing well, ive gained about 23 lbs and she said thats great!.. i feel huge, but not pregnant huge, not that cute belly huge, but that "ohh does she drink alotta beers & eat junk food?" pregnant. i guess that also plays into my crazy insecurties,  i feel unattractive and icky.. i know deep down and in the end wilson loves me more than anyone else does, but right now its really bothering me and  i feel lost... i feel like i probably bother him w/ so many other things im not sure if i wanna bring it up or just ignore it.. 
ok- time to pee and work on thank you cards for my shower!!
night!